"...Because it is by HIS GRACE that we walk through this life, by HIS and HIS alone".
Memories flood my soul. Springing forth, overwhelming me with the notion that I should pause, a bit longer, on this chapter of my life entitled "Lessons Learned".
I hesistate flipping the page. But HE beckons and I obey. This chapter is too familar. Verse by verse, it burns with turmoil. My thoughts smolder in its ruins. Some memories vivid. Some vague. But all lie under the ash of what remains.
I steady myself in the midst of this darkness. For HE that is in me, is GREATER than he that is in the world.....I prod my heart to seek HIM. Time and again. And again. I seek HIM. He gives me strength to push on. I understand now why he beckoned me to come here.
I am reminded of HIS presence in this place. He was standing there, in the midst of my hysteria. His arms - stretched wide and ever so gently stroking my tears away. One by one, each tear he touched. He felt the affliction of my soul. He whispers to me, ..."I am already there". He knows what is next. Why do I fear... to turn the page?
Still, I venture along, into the depths of my remorse - at times grief stricken, even apathetic - my spirit crushed, but not consumed. I continued to watch as He held captive... each and every one....my trials of desperation, and anguish, and sorrow. The reminents of which , together, begin to form the firm ground beneath my feet.
I am paralyzed, at this very moment, as he reveals to me the awe of His Power and Grace. For through my own shame, he weaved this story, this Masterpiece.
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